I think the struggle I'm going through has a lot to do with fear and feeling loss of control.
I keep trying to control my life and control outcomes that I can't.
All I can do is good action, dharmic action, and the outcome is not up to me.
Life is never going to fit my vision of perfect, but it is perfect. It is fine as it is.
That is perfect, this is perfect
Perfect comes from perfect
Take perfect from perfect,
My father told me once that one should never go in the direction of fear. If a choice is motivated by fear, it isn't the right one.
I remind myself to relinquish control and just enjoy.