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Monday, January 17, 2011

Memorial: Ilana Jonsson

April 14th, 1981 - January 17th, 2010

I am lost without your spirit and your energy, your opinions, your chatter, your zest. You were always like a mirror of me. We were friends for nine years and it should have been more. It should have been much more.

At this time, I should be staying with you in your condo and helping out with your new baby. I should be gossiping with you and trading recipes and new tricks for housekeeping.

I miss you so much, I can't stand it. My heart is broken. The world does not make sense anymore, the pieces don't add up.


  1. *hugs* I'm sorry for your loss.

  2. Aamba,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I am sure that when people's lives are so entwined they will meet each other again in many future lives - until one or both of them reaches moksha which is a happy event. I know this is a hard time.
    Hari Om

  3. Surya said-sorry for your loss, she will come back to us, but thats no consolation, i understand

  4. My condolences. and prayers. Feel very sad that you lost a friend.

  5. Thank you. It has been a year and I wonder if her soul is back somewhere on earth. When she first died I had this crazy desire to have a child, to get pregnant immediately, some part of me thinking that I could get her back that way. But I know she'll choose to be born Jewish, she loved her Judaism very much!

  6. Very sorry to read this bad news about your friends. I hope you are doing well. Prayers.