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The White Hindu has moved! This blog is no longer updated, but Ambaa is still writing The White Hindu every weekday at Patheos.com.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

The Connotation of Hippies

For the past couple of weeks I've been struggling with a cold. It eventually morphed into a sinus infection and I went looking for a doctor. I am terrible about seeing doctors regularly and I never pick a new primary care doctor until I actually really need something. As usual,I had changed insurance companies about a year ago and never updated any doctor information.

Long story short, I went on the insurance website and picked a new doctor based on the fact that she was close to me. I also noticed that her name was Indian and her profile said she spoke Hindi. Not that there's any shortage of potential Indian doctors to visit.

It was a tiny practice and I sat for a long time in the waiting room while the nurses tried to sort out my insurance information. A Christian rock station was playing in the background, and most of you know how much that grates on me. But I remained peaceful and didn't let it get to me.

The doctor herself was a delightful little middle aged woman. She was sharp and fun to talk to. When she asked me about what medical care I had recently, I told her that I went to see a doctor and got everything up to date in February 2010 for my trip to India (Can you believe my trip to India was more than a year ago now? I can't!)

She was very excited to hear that I'd been to India and wanted to know more about where I went and what I did. She was not as familiar with the South, but of course she knew the Chankaracharya. She was pleased with me for being a spiritual individual (and also heaped praise on me for not being a smoker!).

She asked how I came to be in India and I gave my pat response that I give most of the time. I have this one quick sentence because most people do not expect or want me to launch into a whole long explanation about my background.So I just say, "Because my parents are hippies."

Usually that causes people to nod knowingly, but this time the doctor was very upset when I said that. "No," she said, "Don't call them hippies. They are spiritual people, the highest aim in life. Do they sit around without jobs?"

"Well, no."

"Do they move around all the time never taking responsibility?"

"No."

"Then they are not hippies.You should never call them that."

It was interesting because I could see how her idea of what hippies are and my idea of what they are seem to be quite different. Her idea is, admittedly, more valid than mine. I was born in 1982 and had no direct experience of the 70s.

And she's right that I should not be so dismissive of the long, hard work my parents have done to improve their souls. For nearly 40 years they have been dedicated to meditation, mindfulness practice, and studying ancient wisdom.

In the future I will find a new way to explain my Indian connections.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Why Being in the Present Moment is Hard

Life has been very good to me recently. I met and started a relationship with an absolutely wonderful man who is my perfect match in every way. I feel total peace and trust in our relationship and there is no need to push towards any next goal. What we have now is perfection and what ever we have in the future will also be perfection. There's nothing I would change.

Which brings up something very interesting for me.

I inherited from my mother, as many of us do, a tendency to worry. To worry over things in the future that I have no control over! I'm also addicted to achieving. I love video games because I enjoy that little rush of getting to the next level, unlocking the next achievement. My knitting is symptomatic of this too. I feel like I'm being productive, I'm accomplishing something as I turn string into sweaters.

With the relationship, though, there is no rush towards anything, no stepping stones to get to, nothing to try to achieve. And it's making me feel slightly weird.

Not that there's anything wrong, I just noticed this vague uncomfortableness in myself because I don't need to *do* anything.I just have to *be*

Why is that so difficult?

A while ago I noticed that staying present eliminates a lot of the pain and stress from life. A little bit of concern and plan for the future is good, but most of what we do is useless and only serves to make us tense. Is it a problem today? No? Don't worry about it.

And then you can keep breaking that down. Is it a problem this hour? This minute? This moment?  You'll find that in the actual moment you are currently in, there is virtually no stress, no worry, and even no physical pain.

Knowing that, how is it that we don't spend all our time in the present moment?

I think it's because of that addiction to achieving. We enjoy the stress because it leads to those little endorphin rushes when we feel like we've fixed something or done something useful.

Learning to recognize the joy and peace in just being and not having to do, do, do all the time, is quite a challenge!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Short Story about my past

It will still be a while before the novel I'm working on is ready, but I do have something else to share!

I wrote a short story of around 20 pages about a young woman who grows up in a cult and tries to leave, but finds in her adult life that she is conflicted about what her past meant to her. Her family does not understand her.

This story is loosely based on my own experiences. A lot of the flashbacks are things that really happened in my life. So if you've been curious to know more about my past and the organization I grew up in, this is your chance! :)

It is only available for Kindle, though, at least for now...

Friday, January 27, 2012

Working on a New Book

Things have been quiet in this corner of the Internet, but I wanted to let you all know that my life is going at a frantic pace and I have lots of projects going on!

The most exciting is that I'm still working on the novel that I described a while back. It will be a new take on the Indian-American experience novel. In mine, the young Indian-American woman having an identity crisis discovers that her family is not actually Indian at all.

It's still in early stages as I try to work out plot kinks, but hopefully by the end of 2012 it will be published and I will be sure to let you know when it's available! :)

Friday, December 9, 2011

An Honor

As you may know, I am a big fan of Hinduism Today, the magazine. 

I just found out that this blog has been mentioned in the latest issue's Digital Dharma section! I am so thrilled and flattered.


Bamboo Thoughts is also mentioned!  

Totally cool. That made my day.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Happy Diwali!

दीपावली की शुभकामनाएं


Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday :)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

My Hindi Resources

I made a new page to house all my Hindi learning resources.  I hope it will be easier to navigate and more fun than just my long list of links buried in the archive!

http://www.squidoo.com/hindi-how-i-learned